:: next 12 exits ::

omfg!

You gotta be kidding...

posted by susiluz @ 12:13 AM 0 comments

gulp

:: [...]
:: I'm a crack in the asphalt you walk by on the street
:: [...]
:: I'm the lesson you'll never learn
:: The sickness that was never your concern
:: [...]
:: I am the knot in your stomach
:: The phlegm in your throat.

posted by susiluz @ 8:29 PM 1 comments

power in my hands!

Stupid powerball, keeping me from sleep..
This thing is way too addictive. There should be some kind of warning or something.
"Highly NOT recommended for people prone to get stupid addictions (such as msn, coke, poppy songs, etc)".

Samu, you gotta get one. :-)

posted by susiluz @ 5:33 PM 4 comments

<3 subnetting <3

I miss telematics. I want that subject back. Networks next year would do.

p.s. ECE looks sweet.

posted by susiluz @ 4:27 PM 0 comments

,eh?

Maybe i should've answer with YES to that question. I doubt it would have made any difference tho, so fuck it.

The show was amazing.
I met cool people.
Fun.

posted by susiluz @ 12:21 PM 0 comments

raid!

I've just remembered that time a friend of mine said: "the world's a big spiderweb and you're one of the spiders conecting everyone on it". Those were great times. I dont know what happened to all the people I knew.
I've never considered myself popular (never thought i was, despite what alex kept saying everytime we'd go to a show), but i used to know loads of people. It didn't really matter where i'd go to, i'd always run into someone i knew. I still see some of those ppl, but it's been so long since the last time i had a word with most of them that i dont really go and say hi or anything anymore.
I think i haven't "bother" lately to get to know new people either. I can be out with my friends one weekend, see some people coming to say hi to some of them and dont really bother about who they are or anything. I'm-with-my-friends-and-that's-all-i-need kind of shit. It's funny how i used to talk shit about one guy, years ago, for having that attitude, the friend-of-my-friends-and-thats-it kind.

I think the increase of my hatred against humans has been a bit responsible of this, but also the incredible big amount of "fashion punks" and stupid kids, that so much annoy me, being every fucking where.

Stupidity really really gets on my nerves. It's something I can't stand, no matter how much i try.
Dumb people make me fee like ripping heads off.

Holy shit, i think i sound like a nazi. :-/ Doh.

Anyway, Further Seems Forever + Pictures Of Shorelines tonight at 8:00, Ritmo & Compás. It's gonna be a great show.
Serg, you're allowed to cry and listen to more than ten FSF songs non-stop.

posted by susiluz @ 12:26 PM 1 comments

Belvedere R.I.P.

"[...] Belvedere has stopped being a band [...] Thanks to anyone who supported us over the years, it was a good ride!!!"

"[...] we decided to put this lame horse known as belvedere to rest [...] thanks to everyone who has supported the band over the last 10 years. it's been a slice."

"[...] our apologies to those who enjoyed what we did...the truth is that we enjoyed it too..."


This is sad news.
I couldnt wait to see them again.
Definitely one of the best bands i've ever seen live and one of my fave bands all time.
They'll be missed.
Thank YOU for the music, the great times listening to your songs and seeing you play.
Thanks for those "this song is dedicated to my good friend susa". And the laughs talking about hockey and my cool watch after the show in Naaldwijk.
Hope to see you again. Even if you're not up on stage.



:: The Experience Is Losing Steam
:: All Inspiration Drifts Away
:: But I Watch Myself Repeat And Ignore
:: My Dreams Are Secondary

:: Wish I Could Take It All For Granted
:: But Motivation's Fading, It's Out Of The Question
:: Wish I Could Break Free For A Moment
:: Disable The Connection With Everything
:: Sign Off

:: Yeah It's True, I'll Often Change My Tune
:: And I Won't Prescribe Myself
:: I'll Walk Away, Regret And Retrace
:: Each Step Filled With Repulsion

:: Wish I Could Take It All For Granted
:: But Motivation's Fading, It's Out Of The Question
:: Wish I Could Break Free For A Moment
:: Disable The Connection With Everything
:: Sign Off

:: No Conscience's Breaking The Mould
:: This Carousel Of Pattern
:: It's Spinning Me

:: I Want And I Try And I Fail
:: This Masquerade Of Instinct
:: It's Breaking Me

:: Signing Off, Sign Off

- Repetition rejection, Belvedere -

posted by susiluz @ 8:33 PM 0 comments

lack of sleep (again)

I can't keep up with the 5 hours of sleep per night that i promised myself. It's been only 3 last night.
I've been inmersed in The Order of the Phoenix for the last 2 days and I just couldn't stop reading after Sirius' death. I can't believe he's gone, he wasnt supposed to die. Anyway, I've just got myself thinking that he'll return somehow. Like he's not dead but just trapped in that funny arch thingy or whatever it was that he fell into.
I really need more. Can't wait for the next book. Gotta watch the 3rd movie too.

Enought about that tho. I've just got back from "D's dinner".
What should have been a dinner for more than 30 people turn out to be a pretty nice one for just 13-15 of us. Most of who came were people i saw a few weeks ago at school, and friends i see quite often, but there were also a few guys i hadn't seen for years. Can't believe how changed Antonio is. It's probably been around 2 or 3 years since i last saw him. When i got home and told my dad he was there he reminded me how he didnt let me follow him to class when i was 5, so that is, my first year of school. I remember running after that boy while he said: dont follow me! But, hey, what was i supposed to do? It was a fricking big school, and i didnt know the way to class. Not my fault we were in the same school bus and class. *grin*.
Oh, yeah, it's been great laughs remembering old jokes and anecdotes from long ago.

I've been listening to NUFAN tonight. I had almost forgotten how much i love their music. Even those cd's some people complain about cause they're a lot softer than their early stuff.
More Betterness is a great record. Period.

posted by susiluz @ 4:00 AM 0 comments

first attempt: unaccomplished

I wish i were better at putting things straight.

posted by susiluz @ 12:25 AM 3 comments

Shows. Days 2 and 3.

Day 2. Deconstruction Tour.

Arrived at the venue around 17:30. At 18 something i was in, at the merch stand with Pablo, trying to buy a BSF t-shirt. Only Crime started playing, but we kept waiting. After and endless while we finally got the stuff and went to meet the others. They were sitting on some sort of platform in fron of the stage, proably the best spot of the place.
After Only Crime came Strike Anywhere, and holy shit, those guys rocked hard! Same as Boy Set Fire (best band of the night, in my opinion) and Strung Out, that came right after. Mad Caddies were good too, but it was my 5th time seeing them so it wasnt that exciting.
I don't feel like talking about each band's gig, mainly cause it could take me forever, so i'll just say it's probably been the best show i've gone to (excluding Pukkelpop, tho it cannot really be compared to as it was a 3 day festival).
Strike Anywhere, BSF and Strung Out were simply amazing. I wish i could go back to saturday evening. Can't wait to see them again.

Same as friday night, there was a bizarre part..
Mad Caddies playing the last song, me going back to the merch stand to see the cds they had. I see there are some guys looking for something with lighters so i go and ask: what are you looking for? in spanish. One guy turns and i realize it's BSF singer, so i ask again (in english now) and he says they lost and ear plug. I start looking and find it. They give it to this guy, Robert, bassist of BSF, and he comes and hugs me saying i saved his life, that those ear plugs are really important and he invites me to the after-show private party (or whatever its called).
No one wanted to come with me, and I wasnt gonna go on my own, so at the very last moment i told Alez and Irene to come and they said yes.
So there we go with Nathan (the singer) up to where everyone was (outside). Got there and found everyone drinking, eating pizza and joking around. Shit, it was so much fun! Felt totally unreal, talking to people i didnt even know in which band they played (i usually dont dig into band's lives. I dont really care whether the singer of certain band is called Nathan or Kris, lives in wherever and loves pasta.)
Took a few cool pictures (specially when Nathan and Rober set that umbrella on fire and someone started saying out loud their band's name), talked to ppl from BSF and Strike anywhere mainly, got some emails, and left around 1:30 cause despite some of them wanted to go out and keep up the party, the buses were leaving for Lisbon.
I suggested Matt (BSF drummer) they should call a song "and girl gets burnt" or something like that. He said he loved the idea for a cd more than a song. It'd be rad if they actually called it that.



Day 3. Universimad. (Pictures of Shorelines)

The boys (and girl!) played at 4:45. It was a really cool show. I love them even more every time i see them. They played a few new songs that are really really good. I loved that super new one they just finished last week.
Can't wait for the next show. 25th May, with Further Seems Forever.

posted by susiluz @ 9:15 PM 0 comments

Shows. Day 1.

First show: passed with distinction. The rest of the night too.

Show started on time (aprox.) and i loved it from begining to end. It was far better than i expected. Had a really really good time. They were cool with the crowd, talked a lot, joke around, and played nice songs.
When it finished i got the chance to talked to the singer (KJ) who said that Scott, the merch guy, lived in Toronto and that i should talk to him. So i walked up to the merch stand and started talking to this guy. The conversation went pretty much like this:
- Hey, KJ just told me you live in toronto.
- Yeah, i do. Why, you too?
- No, but i spent about 4 months in Orillia which isnt too far from there.
- Are you serious?? I lived in Orillia too!! You're gonna be around for a while? we should talk!

So, yeah, I stayed with Kike and spent over an hour talking to this guy about OD, Park Street, Champlain park... Left at 1:30 to take the last subway, went to tribunal, where i met the guys again around 3 and continued talking about Orillia and totally random stuff with Scott. Helped him to get to their hostal, met Reyes at 5 and drove home.

Deconstruction in about 3 hours. My expectations are high, and i somehow know i wont be dissapointed.

Everytime i talk about Canada i feel far from home. Like there was an ocean between home and me.

posted by susiluz @ 3:03 PM 0 comments

Note to self: remain pissed.

I'm feeling uneasy. Dunno why. I just got a funny feeling on my way to class.
Like something was about to happen. Weird, weird.

Anyways, day started pretty balanced. Was having a super cool dream but had to get up.
1 good + 1 bad = neutral. which ain't bad.
Things should start being quite good after 3.
First plan: going to eat at my grandparents, see my lil cousins (Marina's turning 3 today).
Second plan: Free show tonight with friends.
In between plan: stay in madrid and go straight to the show or go home, leave the books and go out. It's not like my bag's too heavy either.

I hope i get the chance to talk to the guys in Chixdiggit. I miss that cool canadian accent. I should go back soon. I miss the people incredibly. And the shitty town, with the mall, and Tim Hortons..
If i get money this summer i could maybe go over in september, after LA.
I wanna do way too many things.

Wow, something unexpected just happend and i'm feeling a lot better. I'm such a sucker..

posted by susiluz @ 10:52 AM 1 comments

webcam laughs

No se que haría sin ti, Mario. Eres la unica persona con la que consigo reirme y sonreir de esa forma que a ti te gusta tanto y que a mi no me gusta nada incluso en momentos como hace un rato, con la lagrimita asomando.
Gracias por preocuparte, por decir que necesistas verme sonreir para irte tranquilo a la cama y asegurarte de que estoy bien para estarlo tú tambien.
Te quiero muchísimo.

(Nach, cuando decidas irte a dormir pronto no creeo que domestique a otro animal. Seguro q no me daba tanta conversacion (y animo), ni sabría lo que es un powerball. ;-) Otra vez dando las gracias. Espero que esta vez tambien haga ilusión.)

posted by susiluz @ 1:16 AM 2 comments

best friends doesnt mean i pulled the trigger

I thought a whole morning listening to songs with lyrics full of hatred, guns, and betrayals would help me hate you. But it didnt really. Not a bit.
I've been all day saying you could rot in hell and i woudn't care at all, but that's just been lying to myself.
I would've never expect hypocresy from what i thought a best friend. Or being pushed away this way.
I think i dont deserve what i'm going thru. Believe ir or not, this is being painful.

I hope you find yourself missing me tons in the end.

I might not hate you, but i certainly hate the way i can't help telling some tears slip.

posted by susiluz @ 12:25 AM 0 comments

random word: weirdo

Orange firgers morning with Mario today. Went to get the tickets for their show on sunday and walked around the city for a while. Run into Harek in Gran Via, who suggested my tatoo should be done jail style or something. Sure... ;-) (hehe).
It's been a good day. Better than last night for sure. Anyways, dont feel like writing about it. I haven't really think about it all day so im not gonna do it now.

I'm excited about this weekend. Specially saturday and sunday at 5. Cant wait.
I hope BSF have youth medium shirts. Bands with small t-shirts are way cooler. And I want one of them badly.

I lack inspiration. More to come.

P.S. Risketos are a pain in the ass. But way too good not to eat them.

posted by susiluz @ 3:08 AM 0 comments

free beer and food i didnt try

Former students reunion at school last night was ok. Worse than last year tho cause 3 of the 3 teachers i wanted to see werent there. It was funny how everyone in my english class for the 2 or 3 last years of school said the same thing when hearing miss caroline wasnt there: "lets go then. no point in being here any longer if she's not here".
We stayed tho. It was good seeing old friends. I hadn't seen some of them for a year.
It was annoying tho having to say hi to people i dont give shit about and dont give shit about me. If we didnt talk when we were in the same class/grade what makes you think im interested now? call me antisocial, call me whatever, but i hate hypocresy.
It was good seeing most of the people, but gotta say the whole thing was pretty much a farce and made me thing if i'll go next year. But i think i will, despite the false looks and having to be nice (for about 4 seconds) to people i cant stand. There are people i wont be seeing at all this year who i really apreciate and id like to see again.
I don't think i can say they're friends if thinking about friends as those who are always there for you and you're always there for no matter what, but they're more than school mates. I've known some of them since i was 5 and kept seeing them in class or around school till we were 18. I've grown up with those kids.
So, yeah, i think i'll go. And i'll go to that dinner they're setting up for May 20th. Just for people that were in class D.

The rest of the night was good too. Went out with some people from school, and had some laughs. Not the kind of thing i'd do every weekend (or every month) but good anyhow.

I've felt loved and liked. People wanting to meet up, sending sms to see what the plan was so we could hang out for a while, getting a ride in a convertible driven by an old friend, being asked about the boy and how i was getting along with it by people i really apreciate.. Nice.
And a sms from Kike saying i should go out or he'd get mad. Hadn't seen him for a while. Sorry I stayed home. Lunch sometime this week for sure.

Something's missing tho. Bad bad.

P.S. "saaan deee egg oh"

posted by susiluz @ 1:25 AM 1 comments

Destination: you

The plan: getting the car a pair of wings.

posted by susiluz @ 10:49 AM 0 comments

rage against the machine

If you see me today do not dare to mention how cool computers are, unless you want your head ripped.
I've just deleted over 1000 mp3, pictures and videos
Stupid firefox.
Stupid me for not reading.

I don't even remember which cd's I had. And I don't feel like downloading the whole lot of them again.

I've never before had this feeling of wanting to break something so bad. Or beat someone up.
I know the fault is mine and only mine, but i can't help it.

posted by susiluz @ 7:09 PM 5 comments