l'escala calling
I've just got a call from Leonie. She was on the way to Las Dunas, starting work at the beach bar on July 1st. I was supposed to be there with her this summer.
She said it's gonna be weird being at Las Dunas without us, and yeah, it's gonna be weird spening the summer here. I miss the lot way too much. Specially when summer comes. I'll try to go over for a weekend or whole week with Juanma and my sister. I'll call Leonie next week to ask if her parents are going, if JP is going with them and when. It'd be great to be the five of us again.
I'm starting to regret not going. And starting to think about calling and saying: hey people, i'm able to go work this year. And simply leave in a few days.
I'm really discouraged about uni, september and everything it envolves, i'm in a "nothings gonna change, i'm not gonna make it in september either" kind of mood and i dont feel like wasting a summer for nothing.
I want a job and holidays. Or good marks.
And i know by not making the best of me i'll definitely won't do any good in the exams, but i dont want another day like June 17th, when i did a crappy exam of a subject i felt i knew a lot about and felt retarded.
Anyhow, i'm off. This can be left unfinished.
jimmy eat world. i eat mcdonalds.
I missed the show tonight cause i didnt go to get my ticket in time, today there where any left. But it's not that much of a big deal. I've seen both Green Day and Jimmy Eat world before, and i'm kinda happy i didnt get to see this one guy from Jimmy fainting (or whatever), falling off the stage, hitting is head, and having to be taken away with oxygen in a stretcher. I'll ask for more details tomorrow. I hope the guy gets well soon.
So, I missed the show but hung out with one of my very best friends. Bought a pair of shoes, ate fries, some of his McFlurry and had a great time just walking around, looking for cds, dvds and talking.
We needed a car. Watching Dawson's Creek would've made the evening better. Maybe next week (Fingers crossed).
I went this morning to give in the application form for the uni i might be changing to next year, and after that i decided to go downtown todo some shopping. I've finally got the kind of shorts i wanted.
I cant wait till the "madrid 2012" madness stops and maybe then they start filling holes, cause holy shit with the stupid reforms!! It makes me incredibly mad.
Fact 1: the city is full of foreigners. It's nice to walk around and hear people speaking english every few steps.
Fact 2: I wanted to go to The Mars Volta and the show got cancelled. Fsck.
singing along. no wonder
There's been something that i finally need to saySeems our friendship has turned from perfect to dissarayTimes like these i thought you'd always be thereNow you've cleared things up by proving youDon't care'Cause you've gone and done it all over againTo think that i ever called you my friendThere's been moments some good,some of them the worst of timesBut now i wont take the blame it was you that was out of line
sin palabras
Siento vergüenza de haber pertenecido a Mirabal. 13 años.
Tenía una buena parrafada escrita pero lo acabo de borrar todo. No me apetece dar explicaciones. Voy a ser = que la coperativa.
Gracias Fermín por haberme enseñado a ser mejor persona.
"Tralari, tralara, la vida es bella".
ouch. music sometimes hurts
There are certain things I don't understand.
Like hipocresy on friends (or what i thought were friends). I thought things were over, everything was clear and everything, but i dont know what to think anymore. This is separating me from things i wanna do and people i wanna see.
I feel like this time busy with exams have been a break in my real life and now that they're over and i could go back, i dont want too. And it's all because of the same damn thing.
Band.
I'm hidding from something i know i'll have to face sooner or later.
I dont understand why i am so scared or whatever it is that i am about it. It's not that big deal.
This is no fun.
Shit, i'm on holidays! i should just be caring about going out, hanging out with friends and ok, starting to study too. But relaxed.
Swimming time.
CD of the day: The Comfort of Home (Rufio).
Whoever said it was bad, was wrong. <3 it.
+61
Time zones are annoying.
And having the cell on silent mode when you're getting a call from Australia, and being asleep at 11am, when my favortite aussie is calling again.
Booo me.
I wanna hear from this kid. It's been a while. I always forget his girlfriend's name. I suck.
I went out with my mom this evening to get one of my lil cousins a bday present, came home, left all the bags in the kitchen, went out for dinner.
Mom and daugther night.
It's been a great time with her.
She's giving me a lot of support.
/<3 mom
ak? oh, come on!!
Maybe i'm not good enough for what i want.
Maybe i should just drop out. Yeah, maybe i should.
And i think i wont.
But this is really frustrating.
It's been a year to forget (academically speaking).
want ad
I gotta find me a nerd. Check
this out.
(via
Nach)
Yay for geeks and nerds.
TZ
"... el cero es un número como cualquier otro. Te puede gustar más o menos según lo q sea: hostias que te dan o puntos que te ponen..."
new message received
Happiness. I go up to my room and see the sms symbol on my cell. Yay! 1 sms! well, no: 5!! that's been good.
1st. Craig asking when exactly i'm going to london so he takes those days off from work.
2sd, 3rd, 4th. Samu being "laziness spirit" and giving good ideas about getting intoxicated." Java 2. 5º convocatoria." hehe.
5th. Hugo asking if he can borrow Final Fantasy VII. He can have the game. I dont play with it anymore.
7th June. Happy birthday, Kike!! Pukkelpop bracelet on till the day we die (or it brakes). :-*
time shift
It's 4:16 am, Saturday 4th June. I'm writing in word pad cause it's not only wi-fi i dont have (which means no posibility of blogging properly from my room) but also a good text editor.
I've just got back a while ago. First thing i did was get online (me and my addiction), check the message board i've been stoping by and writing lately, inbox (no new mails), friend's blogs (no new entries) and turn off the comp.
Got to bed and suddenly felt like writing. So thats what im doing. I'm lying in bed, trying to get off the last effects of alcohol and thinking about a night that's been pretty good. It's had its ups and lows, but the overall is fairly positive.
I drank more than i should have, considering the plan was getting home early and stay up late studying. And i hadn't drink that much, but alcohol affects me easily and i hadnt eaten a thing since 3pm.
Day started at 9, hearing my mom talk about me and my sis when we were small.
Got to uni around 11, left at 3, went to eat at my grandparents, saw one of my fave things on earth (little cousins that'd be), came home, went out.
I've finally got to meet Cris' bf. He's really nice. Had fun the time i spend with them.
Got to Shock around 10. Sergio and Mario showed up on time, we waited for Nacho and Kike and we went to buy cola, ice and plastic glasses. The rest of the people came after.
It hasn't been any kind of super big party, but i had a great night. As i always say it's company that really matters. I loved seeing people i wasnt too sure would turn up.
I got a super cute Gizmo from my friends. It moves and does that singing noise kinda thing it does on the movies. 100% cuteness.
And Pleasantville from Hugo. Nice movie. :-)
Had a really nice talk to a girl i trully love about old times and things i should do but i wont probably do, set up a party at my place after the exams, including a show from the boys and girl and maybe even us, a bbq and a night swim.
Made plans about going to the states before we're 30, to live for a while, talked about how hard it is (not to say impossible) to make something out of the music we love in this country (no matter if you have enough potential or not) and how a DVD won't make any difference at all.
Glad to see there are people that share my dreams. People I can share them with and try to make them real.
The world shouldn't work this way. Everything would be a lot easier if we took the world as a big unity, as a world, a big big mass of land where we're all the same, instead of an unity of independent countries. But that's not something im gonna start with cause i could go on for hours and it's getting late. Maybe some other time.
Talked about that boy that's got so many names from so many different people, on the way home. And while i was talking about it i felt a lot of ideas straightening. Like i was talking and at the same time listening to every word i said. It felt like i was the actor and the audience.
That persistence just made me think i should be morecorageous. Risk. Fight for that i really want.
I'll do if i find the time. And the guts.
It's gonna be a long summer anyway. And hope is something i tend not to lose.
twetinager
So yeah, that's apparently the word this kid made up for us people turning 20 this week. Or so Bote said.
Anyways, here's the real entry. That stupid 20 and smile were post just so i'd have this on June 1st (know i could have simply change the date, but yeah... whatever)
Just got back from Malkavian. Palo, Ana and Sergio came to pick me up and Charlie came and met us there. I had a blast. Like every time i go there (and i order the same damn thing. Changed from vanilla milshake to some pretty nice tea with milk, cinnamon and lemon that i've tried to do like a thousand times at home but that never tastes half as good as it does there. Anyway today's wasnt that extremly good. And we got no cookie. Bastards).
I love the conversations we have there. Absolutly hilarious. Some serious stuff gets its place too every one in a while, but i usually spend most of the time laughin my ass off.
So yeah, great night. And i got home with a new guitar strap and a super cool tank top. Neato!!
THANX THANX THANX.
The rest of the day has been pretty boring, except for all the sms and calls from friends wishing me a happy bday, that really made the day special. Thanks a lot to everyone. Seriously.
Everyone's been asking how did it feel to turn 20, and to be honest, everything feels exactly the same, and i'm not having any kind of crisis like "omg! i'm 20" kinda shit, but 25 started to look way too close all of a sudden.
And 25 just won't be the same...
