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the end in forever

Guys are assholes by default.
Even when you think you've found someone different they prove you wrong. Some after a few months, others after a few years.

I deal with break ups a lot better than i do with dissapointments and recently i had a huge one of the latter with someone (too obvious to write names) so i'd be lying if i said im alright, despite i aparently am. As long as i dont think about it, trying to understand what on earth went and is going on i'm pretty cool. The last past days have been quite awesome for different reasons and ive already started to move on.

I just cant help feeling a hole in my chest and lacking air (literally) everytime i remember something about 10 days ago and wonder how can someone change so much in so little time. Things would be much easier if i knew what happened. Things are always easier when there are no lies in between.
I think i deserve some kind of explanation but as much as i want to keep trying to get an answer i know i should let things be. I shouldnt put any more effort, i've done enough. Cause seriously, what else could i do? Specially from here, with so many working hours, lack of sleep and no free internet.

It's just too sad to think this is the end of something that was so good. Cause it's a horrible end.

Apart from the downs, as its been said, there are also ups. Im hanging out with great co-workers i hardly talked to 2 and 3 years ago and some awesome people ive met this year, and my sister is coming to work on friday till the end of the month. I'm picking her up at 10 in Figueras. Can't wait.

posted by susiluz @ 6:41 PM